a grain of Wheat

Gospel
Jn 12:24-26

Jesus said to his disciples:
“Amen, amen, I say to you,
unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies,
it remains just a grain of wheat;
but if it dies, it produces much fruit.
Whoever loves his life loses it,
and whoever hates his life in this world
will preserve it for eternal life.
Whoever serves me must follow me,
and where I am, there also will my servant be.
The Father will honor whoever serves me.”

It surprises me that on the very day that I try the faith journal, this passage is Today's reading of the wheat dying.

If the wheat does not die and fall to the ground, then that wheat will not be able to produce more wheats.

And in this case, I am the wheat, if I hang on to being what I am, do not turn away fm my sins and turn away from God and His ways then I am holding on to my own beliefs which may not what God wills for me.

And to apply the passage to my life, it would be not reading the words of God often, not praying and spending enough time with God.

Prayer:
Dear Lord, thank you for telling me to start this faith journal. I thank you for being so patient and loving with me. I am ashamed to take your patience and love for granted. Please do not give up on me, please continue to guide and to love me. Please teach me to die to myself, so that I can be more like you and do learn to do your wills. I make this prayer through Jesus Christ, my Lord, God and Saviour.
Amen.